Another Year Closer to Death

This year my birthday was particularly… growing. A couple people asked me if I felt any older and I think for the first time in my life I really do. Married at 22 with an apartment in Mexico and an income made up entirely of support. This undoubtedly grows my faith but as my faith grows my responsibility grows with it.

How do I provide for my family? How do I glorify God in everything? How do I live?

Blaire and I were teaching in Ensenada, Mexico on my birthday. We didn’t have very much money but we still felt God wanted us to celebrate. So we went and even agreed to pay for my friend who has the same birthday as I do. As we walked to the car I looked at the ground and saw something buried in the dirt. I bent down and picked up a dusty 500 peso bill (about 30$). At that moment I felt like God was speaking to me. He reminded me that “faith is confidence in what we hope for and the assurance of things unseen” Heb 1:1. It’s about trust. He also reminded me that He was our provider, even if He had to pull it out of the dust! The money covered every expense we had to the penny! HE IS GOOD!

So here’s the way I see this christian life thing.

The older I get the more responsibility God gives me. But it’s a responsibility to trust Him. “Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.” Prov 3:5. To be obedient to His sovereign voice no matter what. So we learn to die to ourselves, and Christ lives in us. John says “He must increase but I must decrease.” John 3:30. Even as Paul is chained in a jail cell he says that “For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.” Phil 1:21. We die to ourselves and have eternal life in Christ. This, in my opinion, is our only hope of true peace. Jesus knew the world would reject him and those that followed after him. “I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33. This is the good news of the gospel, and the only hope we have.

…And this is us praying over the city of Ensenada and camping with friends!